hello. :D
Day by day and with each passing moment,
Strength I find to meet my trials here;
Trusting in my Father's wise bestowment,
I've no cause for worry or for fear.
He whose heart is kind beyond all measure
Gives unto each day what He deems best-
Lovingly, it's part of pain and pleasure,
Mingling toil with peace and rest
Ev'ryday the Lord Himself is near me
With a special mercy for each hour
All my cares He fain would bear and cheer me
He whose name is Counsellor and Pow'r.
The protection of His child and treasure
Is a charge that on Himself He laid;
"As your days, your strength shall be in measure",
This the pledge to me He made.
Help me then in every tribulation
So to trust your promises, O Lord
That I lose not faith's sweet consolation
Offered me within Your Holy Word.
Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,
E'vr to take as from a father's hand,
One by one, the days the moment fleeting,
Till I reach the promised land.
(:
2:01 PM
Thursday, August 31, 2006
so sad.. ytd din have watch gathering after all. only wen jie n i stayed back la. sian. we were really very like whatever la. but found out today tt they thought it was canceled. hmm.. i wonder who told them tt. they tot canceled den everybody go home after sch.. it's ok. will try to organise one agn =) this time i hope everyone can make it! today was quite fun.. ther's day celebrations.. short day =D hee.. concert quite nice. after tt had food delight eat like a pig xP eat eat eat.. saw many ex-bpians today! woots! they all say i grew taller. lol x) nice to see them back. a pity i got no more pri sch to go back to. i mean all my tchers left le go back also no meaning but it's ok tmr got P6 class gathering. n i'm sure this isn't canceled. yea.. after tcher's day celebration had choir com mtg. so hard to choose new members lor. all the sec2's not bad den is too quiet. how?? ms ong and ms lee got quite diff perception of com members so kinda difficult to choose also. sianz.. prefer ms ong to be in charge. sshh.. dun tell ms lee >.< ms ong suggested this yr ROD go sentosa! woots! she say she go sun tan with us xP fun mann.. as long as b4 the cambodia trip no prob! hee.. nice nice =) anw, now weather so nice. wan go slp. eat n slp like pig horz? haha.. tt's what i am xD
10:07 PM
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
hee.. had a nice long talk with emily jus now =) talked abt so many things.. all our thoughts and feelings that we've kept inside for so long is finally out.. haha. Emily and I are kinda replicas of each other. haha.. same thoughts, same feelings.. we dun have to spell things out and yet understand how each other's feeling. nice isn't it? hee.. talked to Sherlyn over the phone jus now too! after so long... it's real nice to know that there's still the bond, the connection btwn us after 3 yrs! friendship is a blessing.. treasure each and every friend around you! =) that's what i love to do.. LOVE my friends! yipee! this fri gonna have 6B gathering! after sooo loong.. quite many of them confirm le.. not bad ar. 6B unite!! lol. hopefully mw can make it. we going to watch movie together. eat lunch too. catch up on each other's lives. i miss those days.. haha. anw, today was quite a fun day! i mean sch was boring as usual but my classmates were so entertaining. lol. gd or bad? hmm.. tt i dunno. jia xin and russell.. 204 boys.. super jokers.. xD [ laughs ] lame but real funny. brought a lot of laughter to the class. and today we were taught how to understand and appreciate our friends better.. how nice.. =)) I miss obs! where we could kayak and enjoy God's wonderful creation. where everything was back to basics, where we were always surrounded by nature.. haha. yea. jus miss all the fun and adventure. heex.. tmr got DA GAMA gathering!! woots! xP smilez.. FRIENDS just brighten up your lives x) there's one friend that we cannot live without and that is the Lord Jesus. He is my forever friend.. wow....
12:10 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
Pooh is simply cute!FRIENDS FOREVER!BIG HUG!Aww.. so sweet..I wish upon a star... SIMPLY CUTE! =))
Dreams come true..........
10:59 PM
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Each day we learn from yesterdayOf God's great love and care;And every burden we must faceHe'll surely help us bear.God allows trials in our lives not to impair us but to improve us. =)tho my heart is filled with sadness and my eyes filled up with tears i will jus place my life in God's hands and let Him carry me thru...
9:10 PM
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
so many thoughts...so many feelings..inexpressible..kept inside..bottled up.
8:51 PM
Friday, August 18, 2006
OBS! my watch was called DA GAMA! Woots! we were mobile.. they did a switch =P haha.. in my watch there was LiYi, Avril, Wen Jie, Joel, Bernard, Dinah, Wani, Ummu, Amirah, Grace, Brian, Damian, Adly, Sarahot (lol.. that's what she wants to be called) and of cos me! initially i din know anyone but over the 5 days we got to know each other much better i believe =) they are super fun loving pple to be with! all so enthu and high.. LOL. but all very encouraging too! our instructor jonathan is a super lame guy. hong kong guy. haha.. crack super lame jokes but we still laugh! He rocks! haha.. but he keeps saying dun lost ur things ok? n we love to correct him. he also calls us da gamat instead of da gama. lol. but it definitely brought abt lots of laughter =D the first day when we started OBS i felt kinda disappointed cos the activities were not as fun as i thot they would be. simple games but i learnt a lot from them as i look back now. i've learnt how to gain trust from others and how to trust others. it seem easy to say but the process is not as easy as it seems. We also learnt from another game how to expect the unexpected.. they taught a lot abt how to face life and i'm enlightened now! dinner time.. we had to cook in the dark.. so we ate uncooked rice and food. YUCK! x( so sad.. at nite couldn't slp tho. maybe not tired enuff.. haha.. next day FUN was jus beginning.. haha. we woke up early unpitched our tents and set off for camp 1.. (we were at camp 2) we had to prepare all that we needed for the next 3 days cos we wereb't going back anymore. we carried the SUPER HEAVY backpack and hiked. we reached there much faster den expected. we sand along the way to pass time. our watch was slowly starting to bond =) when we reached camp 1 we went rock climbing! haha.. i did buddy rock climbing with Wen Jie. my hands and legs not long enuff in the end take so long to do but we still reached the top =) DA GAMA guided me and encouraged me. real nice. during rock climbing was also the time wenjie became my "kor kor". haha.. they say when we rock climb look like kor kor and mei mei. felt very glad for some of them cos despite their fear of heights they still climbed to the top. all the way DA GAMA! after that we went to learn how to kayak. we had to do the capsize drill while it was drizzling so it was kinda cold.. brr. was so scared like who likes to capsize? what if we get stuck in the kayak? haha.. end up it was ok. i mean there's always a first time to everything rite? poor wen jie lost his specs while doing demo.. we had to rush a lot but at least we din have to cook our own dinner.. haha. got cooked food this time round! still kept waking up in the middle of the nite. slept on some muddy area.. hard to slp la. haha.. so fast 3rd day le. we had land ex. today! walk so LONG! my back nearly broke ok?! the bag made my shoulders so painful.. i wan massage! hahaz.. we got lost halfway and suddenly.. SPLAT! a bird shit on my head!!!!! ahhhh.. my instructor said i was lucky cos the bird that shit on my head was a bird that i was rarely seen. like riggghhttt.. i got to lead my watch and in the process learnt how to navigate. not bad eh? haha.. jkjk. that day we din get to bathe but the sea breeze was enuff. it really cooled us down and it started to get cold... did centriduty(i think that's how u spell it) with grace, wenjie and joel. sat under the starlight.. haha and got to know each other btr and of cos do our duty. found out the guys in our watch all so guai.. love their siblings so much de, dun use vulgarities, help the gals.. great! we could see changi airport from where we were. we missed civilization! haha.. what do u expect? we had to pee on the beach, in the woods.. [shudders] managed to read the daily bread after centriduty while waiting for avril ang liyi to come back. =) haha.. that nite was nice with the sea breeza but i still woke up in the middle of the nite.. dunno why tho. the camp was ending so quickly.. it was the fourth day already. we kayaked from where we were all the way to camp 2. that i practically arnd the whle pulau ubin! i kayaked with my "kor kor". haha.. we stayed behind and assist joel and grace in sweeping. making sure the slower ones could catch up. throughout the whole process of kayaking we encouraged each other a lot. i learnt that even
a small act can make a great impact on others =) and that teamwork was the only way we could succeed. haha.. we left at arnd 8.40am which was way behind schedule. we were supposed to leave at 8am! the other grp only managed to reach at 5pm despite leaving at the same time.. they did it the day b4. we kinda found it impossible to reach camp 2 at 3pm. but WE DID! haha.. the last part was the part i enjoyed most mann.. wenjie and i wished grace and joel a nice day and we sprinted all the way to the end! we were more den 200 m away from the front pple cos some were really very slow. but we jus sprinted. it was amazing. going against the current. we kayak so fast and tho both of us were tired we jus continued padallind so fast that we reached b4 some of them who were in front! haha.. wen jie and his "well done"! lol. it was a real sense of achievement!! =D however, later in the day we kinda got a dressing down from jon. we became very slack and did not keep to the time given. but that somehow got us closer n more determined to work as a team! i wonder how jon does that.. but it's a gd thing isn't it? slept quite well that nite.. tired mahz.. haha. Thank God i din get my hand cramps again. i prayed and God answered my prayers! sooo sad.. last day le.. we did our jetty jump today.. i laughed so much! DA GAMA, I'LL MISS YOU! haha.. teamwork in da gama was now no. 1! haha.. jon was so proud of us and said well done. must be influenced by "kor kor" la. haha.. one thing DA gAMA def learnt was how to say is " WELL DONE"! =))
- Getting together is the beginning, keeping together is progress
- Thinking together is unity, working together is success
- To serve, to strive but not to yield
I MISS OBS!
9:34 PM
Sunday, August 13, 2006
ytd had my first cambodia mtg! hahaz.. learnt how to speak a bit of their language.. hee x) really pray tt maria and jordan can go. kor kor decide to go le =) hee.. it was quite fun learning their language and history. ended at den we walk here walk there 245 le. hurry to macs had 15 mins lunch den rush back for YP. i saw someone in the basement but as soon as our eyes met i turned away. i really dun understand myself. feel so dumb... YP, we learnt abt the spiritual gifts that God has given us and tt we shld exercise them. let us all start from small things! and God will make us ruler over many things =) a promise.. as usual had netball trg after tt. b4 we even started trg i was practising my shooting and i sprained my finger =( sobx.. mon got obs how to enjoy.. bleahz x( nvm. it's btr to day. well.. ended up practising shooting the whole time.. cldn't train. it's ok. i'm sure i'll be ok by next wk. pray for me k? hahaz.. den went for RFG! leart tt we shld always fear God and keep His commandments. out of love =) talked to kor abt * ended up crying.. i really find it so hard to let go.. Lord, help me..
today woke up went for morn worship. learnt abt abraham's step of obedience and path of separation. really en encouragement to me esp seeing how he really placed his whole life in God's hands. after tt had breakfast with sam n mor. so funny.. laughed so much! sam la.. talk nonsense. hahahaha.. den went for SS. learnt that God indeed has a purpose for everything. and i really feel very thankful tt God chose me to be His child =)) psalm 94:18-19 tells us how God comforts us in times of trials and how He is our refuge. yay! netball gonna get jersey. white and orange. haha.. i'm wearing S which is v big for me?! talked to em n she told me how she was enlightened tt God will never leave us nor forsake us.. His love is forever! feel so happy for her.. she also told me when others are sad stay happy so u can cheer them up =D hee.. really wonderful. thank God for my bananas! yesh! i've finally finished packing for OBS! tmr's obs! gonna miss all of ya wen i'm there! your will be in my prayers =) i won't forget your! haha.. and so i btr go now. gotta get enuff rest. byeee.. all of your takkaire k? HUGS! where are you?? i really wish i had answers to your questions...
in my heart always..
12:14 AM
Saturday, August 12, 2006
OBS is coming! on mon! i think i kena residential la. sad mann. but it's ok. God has a purpose for EVERYTHING! and i mean everything. if we can except good from Him why not adversity right? yup. so i'm just looking forward to all the adventures that await me =D yup. and to making new friends! hee.. Great isnt it? i'm all ready for mon! apart frm the lizards gab says there are in the rm. lol. whatever. i shall overcome my fear! lalala..i miss all of you! can't wait to go church tmr!hee.. love all of your lots! and my bananas too xPkae.. in a few more hours i'll see ya btr go now.Byeee..
12:00 AM
i'm gonna smile like nothing's wrong.talk like everything's perfect.act like it's all a dream.walk away and pretend it's not hurting me. every time i look back, memories will start flashing back.times we used to be so happy together.let go.. let GodLord, i really pray hard that he'll return to you.Let me not stray frm You butcontinue to walk close to You...I PRAY!
4:11 PM
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
to have thought that... how silly.
9:49 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
woots! tmr gg OBS shopping!got a whole long list of things to buy! haha.. after NDP concert go emily's hse change den go PS! hee.. after shopping go meet my fam at raffles hotel den meet jet's fam for dinner . go see fireworks together =) nice eh? jus got some super gd advice frm maria.. thx my dear =)
OBS! HERE I COME! haha.. all of us so excited! think i'm super blessed la. got to go campin P5, P6 actually every yr till now!n each yr i gain experience! greAT.. look at the title of today's post. i'm happy yet sad. i keep thinking of.. feel so sad like why are things like tt now?? i feel really tired trying tostay happy. and yet at the same timeso many things are making me happy.
idon'tunderstandmyself. everythingseemedlikeadream. nowi'mbacktoreality. iwonderifhestillcaresireallydo. Precious Lord, take my hand, lead me home.. jus me'
10:17 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
i'm going to Cambodia!! =)) maybe matt kor gg also.. hee x) but at the same time kinda confused. mum might be gg back to work in oct after noah's PSLE. whole nov i'll have intensive and choir camp, choir ROD..will hardly be at home. noah all alone at home right after mum goes back to work.. i wanna stay back and take care of him and also go for DVBS but this trip to cambodia will def be a very gd experience. so i really dunno.. caught in btwn. today was aunty bee joo's last day with us.. sure gonna miss her lessons! =( today kor din come.. kinda expected. sad. well.. what can i do. i'm really confused. feel so tired yet at the same time can't be myself. where were you when i needed you.. not even friends anymore?? i wonder.well.. God gives us trials to improve us not to impair us so rejoice!xxflusteredxx
9:10 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
as usual.. today was real nice as all sats are =) why? cos i get to spend time with my fellow bros and sis- in Christ! woke up at 11 today.. haha.. had my beauty slp! at last! well.. left the house at 2 cos nick had to be there early to help out in CC and mor played the piano. hee.. so spent time downstairs helping samwith her maths probs. love maths!! =D after that i saw kor! so happy! really glad he's back in church =)) really pray that he'll come tmr too! for ss at least... PRAY!! haha.. after that went up for YP. enjoyed singing as i always do esp if you'resinging to the Lord =) after that william talked abt the 2 sept games. he touched on 3 very imporant pts.
- Friendship- make friends during the games, be friendly
- Fellowship- have fellowship with the other Christians from the other churches
- Fruit- can the fruits of the Spirit be seen in you even as you play the games?
learnt a lot during bs-SERVICE FOR GOD. are you serving God in church or pleasing pple? have u surrendered yourself to God? meaning you do not have any rights of your own anymore.. are you serving in church sincerely or do u have a motive? this are gd qns to dwell on. yup.. had long bs today! it was really enriching and the fellowship we had together was really nice =) only started netball trg at 6.10pm. hahaz.. enjoyed netball trg alot too! i finally an shoot! FINALLY!! i really did cos i prayed =) hee.. yea, really enjoyed myself today. now i'm jus wondering if i shld go to Cambodia... i really dunno.. got 3 injections leh!! haha.. and mum may not allow. right after that YC somemore. mus make sure cnt fall sick tt is if i'm gg la. oo.. this tues gg PS for OBS shopping! den go raffles hotel stay with family =) woots! i feel so happy, happy, happy! wish i could stay liddat forever. lol. den OBS! OBS=ADVENTURE! which i love so much! hahaz.. kkz.. gotta go bathe now. blog another time!
you never fail to brighten my day =)
12:02 AM
oh yes.. i forgot! somebody cheated in common test today.. got me so pissed! like why can't pple jus be honest?? why mus they cheat in order to get gd results?! well.. it's ur loss i'm trying to help u pple in the end u get so sarcastic.. whatever.. i shan't care. jus doing the right thing anything wrong with that?? haiz.. XXflusteredXX
11:18 PM
Friday, August 04, 2006
hee.. today's there are so many things to be happy abt! firstly, common tests are all over! eng and chi orals too! all so nerve wrecking.. glad it's all over =) next, kor is going to church tmr!! he so long nv come church le so glad he's coming tmr. really pray that all of us will learn to put God first no matter what. jiten was so super funny.. natural joker never fails to make us laugh =D hmmm.. i'm confused over quite many things. xin hen luan. jus wondering.. hoping to have an ans.. i really dunno. i'll jus pray and cast all my cares to God =) well.. i'm really very thankful for all the friends that God has given to me! - morsha! my best friend!
- elsia.. my dearest mei
- amanda.. my darling jie
- my kors.. matt n isaac
- dis.. jet n lucas
- my bananas! gek peng n emily!
not only for them but for everyone single one who has encouraged me in one way or another! who've been there for me when i needed your.. thank you so much =) anw, gettin late i btr go slp le. nitez!
my life is in your hands'
11:04 PM
Thursday, August 03, 2006
haiz.. studying for bio now. tmr's last day of ct! SO HAPPY! but so sad i cant get anything into my head now! so frustrated! sooo many thinngs on my mind how to study?? wish i could get all of them out of my head.. emily's suppose to be msgin me to keep me awake.. em, where are you? haha.. sch is act qite fun x) with chickenlum arnd.. lol. super funny guy la.. laughed a lot in sch today =D but later watched channel 8 9 0'clock show make me so sad.. emotional la can't help it.. miss you lots.. wish could talk to u once again.. we once were so close but now.. =( aye..
you're in my thoughts.. never gone
10:13 PM
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
this wk's ct wk.. been mugging! well.. not exactly.. slacka bit x) hahaz.. jus hope everything will be over soon! can't wait for obs ! great! going obs shopping on tues after national day celebration! woots! =D no matter what results i get i jus gotta thank God for them.. dun think will be very gd tho. tests all so hard. but it's over so let's jus treasure the precious present and look to the future! =) gotta continue studying now!
waiting for your return'
9:02 PM
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
Halo! i've got a blog now.. great but only can use during sch hols..mann.. so sad. it's okie. i'll try to come on my bro's lappy if possible. hee.. byeee for now! =)